I have waited on writing this post simply because it is super personal. One thing I pride myself on as a writer, blogger, and even as a person is being open, honest, and real. With that in mind I felt I had to write this.
First a little back story
I was born with a condition called cerebral palsy. I am able to function normally. I can walk, run, I was a cheerleader in high school. I work a full time job. I live a pretty normal life. Honestly, if you looked at me you would probably wouldn’t even realize it. I am pretty lucky.
And that is why dealing with this has been so hard.
I don’t want to be ungrateful. or feel sorry for myself. I have a great life. a husband who loves me. I career I love. I have all I could ever want. But, lately I have been plagued by the thoughts that my cerebral palsy is giving me more trouble. I feel like my legs are not as strong as they used to be. That I am slowly becoming unable to do the things I could do even at 17. I know as you get older things change you aren’t as capable. I am 24. I shouldn’t be unable to stand for 8 hours, and essentially bed ridden for 24 hours afterwards. But that’s what is happening.
As I said I don’t want to seem ungrateful. I was struggling up until now in silence with really what I live with everyday. I feel like I am angry at the condition getting worse.
This is my life right now. I am trying my hardest to get it under control. I have always felt pretty good about myself. Just not the past few weeks.
I am writing simply to vent,and simply to put it out there that everyone has a battle they fight. Some of them you can see with your own eyes, and some you can’t. That does not mean you have to do it alone. You do not have to suffer in silence.
Now I have told you. I am going to talk to my husband when I get off tonight. Thanks for listening.